Spurts

You know, I am finding blogging to be a lot like my scripture reading. It goes in spurts. I do really good for a while and then I stink really bad for a while. =) I need to do better in both areas. =)
Well.........welcome back. =) It's been almost a year since I last blogged and there is so much that changed. It's hard to know where to begin. lol To make a long story short, we are living in Logan now. I am going to school, it's my first semester. We've gone through bankruptcy and have seen all it's brutalities. =) But all in all, things are looking up. After all, when you are at the bottom, there is no other way to go other than up, right? lol =)
We are truly blessed and I feel my Heavenly Father's love. That seems to go in spurts also. =) I have no one but myself to blame. I humble myself and then I forget, I humble myself and then I forget. You'd think that I'd learn this by now. =) So is life though, I suppose. Or at least my life. =) I'm forever changing it seems. Which is a good thing I think, because I am always in need of changing. =) I am always in awe that my Heavenly Father still chooses to bless me even when I'm a bonehead. =) Life truly is an amazing journey.
So I am super excited. This is my favorite time of year.......Fall! Oh I can actually hear the leaves falling off the trees in the breeze and smell the crispness of the air. I love all the Fall smells; pumpkin, spice, apple cider. Oh they make my mouth water. I love Halloween! Quinn thinks I'm nuts, it his least favorite holiday, but I just love the carefree, childlike quality it has. It's the one time of year you can dress up and be something you are not or ever will be. =) At 28 years old I could still be a princess for one night. =) lol After all, isn't that a dream that we as women never truly grow out of? =) We all want the handsome prince/knight who grovels at our feet for just one precious kiss. Who would fight for us and sweep us off our feet. =) Yes, Halloween is for the children and children at heart. =) And I will admit I am still a bit of a child. =)
The other reason I love this time of year is that ALL our holidays are at this time of year. All our birthdays, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas. They are all bunched together. And though this can be stressful at times because we are always broke at the end of the year because of all the holidays and birthdays, it's the most fun. It's like 4 months of celebration. =) I just turned *cough* 21 on the 19th. =D Allee will be 7 on the 25th, Bridger 2 =( on the 29th of Oct, Quinn will be "30" on the 24th of November (Thanksgiving Day), and Jolie will be 5 on Dec 19th. So yep, they are all, bam bam bam, right in a row. =) But it's fun. =)
I am super excited about all the fun stuff there will be to do this Fall and my family has made awesome plans for Christmas. We have made it a tradition to rent a cabin and spend a couple nights together with the whole family and it's a BLAST! I am so blessed to live in a family that enjoys to be around and play together. Truly, nothing makes me more giddy. =) I love families. I love that even after spending 28 years (oops it slipped =)) with my family that I am still learning new things about them and about the person they are becoming. Also, we are always adding new additions, whether it be a brother-in-law or sister-in-law, or niece or nephew. It's always changing and I love that. More people to get to know and more people to love. If I could find a job that I could just go around loving people, making them happy, and kissing babies, I'd be a rich woman. =D I would love that job. Know of any openings in that field? =D
Well this is longer than I thought it would be, but it's due to not keeping up with it so long. =) I really love comments guys, so if you have something to say, say it. I love feedback. But mostly, I just love to keep in touch with the people I love. So welcome back to my blog. I've missed you guys. Hope to keep this going, so all the encouragement is greatly appreciated. =) LOVE YOUR FACES!!!! =D

Who I am

You know, I am a lot of things. I'm a mother to 3 adorable children, I am the wife to a wonderful husband, a daughter to goodly parents, a sister to amazingly good siblings, my grandfather's replacement =), and a friend to some of the most amazing people the Lord had to offer, a daughter of God, and a slave to my bad habits. I am a lot of things. Some of which that I am not proud to admit. =) But one thing stands..........I am all those things. The good and the bad all make up the person I am. I am working on the bad, but I'm confident that I will never be rid of the bad entirely.......at least on this earth. =) Some people find me annoying, some people find me nice, some people don't like me at all. I've come to terms with this. Not everyone is going to like me, and sometimes I am glad they don't. =) lol But........one thing remains. I am who I am. That doesn't change because of what someone thinks of me. I still think abortion is horrible and a sin. I still think that Obama is a fruit. I still love Ellen DeGeneres despite my disapproval with her life style. I still enjoy salt and vinegar chips on occasion, even though they make my breath smell bad. =) I still feel strongly about letting those people you love, know it. I believe in living my religion to the best of my ability and acting as a living witness to my Heavenly Father. I also believe that no matter how many times your child claims they will keep their gum off of your furniture, carpet, or sister's hair, it will always end up there. =) But one thing remains.............I am who I am.

I hope all who read this will take this with them. Who you are right now, no matter how flawed that may be, are a big deal. You are the most important person in the world to at least one, if not many, different people. You, the way you are, are making a difference in the world. Whether that be good or bad, is up to you. God loves you and expects a lot from you because He loves you. You are not alone when you stand for something you believe in. And the world wouldn't be the same without you. Stand up for who you are and what you believe in. Be courageous. We have a lack of courage in the world, lets bring it back. Be who you are and never back down. Don't forget who you are, you're too important.

What I've learned in the last year!

You know, I think about the year that I just had and it makes me tired even thinking about it. It was one crazy year. You know how Mark Twain wrote, "It was the best of times and the worst of times." I understand what he was saying. In the last year I've lived with a alarm clock stuck inside my chest. I feel this urgency to get myself prepared spiritually, emotionally, and physically for something. I am not sure what it is, but my internal alarm clock is going off. "It's time, it's time! Get going, get going!" it screams at me. I sometimes get discouraged because I feel I have such a long long way to go. I am far from perfect and though I know I will never reach perfection on this earth, I feel I must try my best. I watch families and marriages fall apart more often and I struggle each and every day to keep a good grasp on mine. This last year has been such a roller coaster of emotion for me. I've had more sadness and more happiness in this last year than I've ever experienced in my entire life. I've learned more, the hard way usually, but occasionally I don't have to go down the hard road to figure it out. =) Occasionally! =) I've had to practice faith in a way I've never had to. I've been humbled to my knees on several occasions. I've cried in public bathrooms, in my car, in my room, and even in the closet on one occasion. I've felt completely isolated at times followed by a strong sense of someone being with me. I've felt lost and afraid followed by calm and and a great sense of clarity. I guess what I'm getting at.....is that life has really been a serious case of the ups and downs for us this last year. But I am so eternal grateful.

I've been praying for months that the Lord would mold me into the person I need to become to please Him and myself. I've been trying harder to think of others over myself and to be a better family member, wife, mother, and friend. I still am working on it, but practice makes perfect right? =) With this request I knew that the only way to truly grow is through trials. I knew that those trials, dependent on how I dealt with them, would mold me into that person. If I had more faith, relied on the Lord more than myself, and stayed close to Him always, I would pass. So I've tried to do just that. However, I found myself, to my dismay, complaining about the trials that are given to me. =) Duh! Right? But then I have to repent for my stupidity and try again. I hope someday to get it right. One of my dad's favorite sayings is, "tough times don't last, tough people do." I'm going to be tough. I'm going to have faith because I know the Lord has a plan for me. He's been my only friend when I've felt the most lonely. He's the only one that could cheer me up, and I plan on showing Him how grateful I am by passing this series of tests that are thrown at me. I will not give up. I may miss a question on the quiz occasionally, but I will pass the test.

Something is coming! I'm not sure what or when. But something is coming. I can feel it in my heart and soul. I'm preparing the best I can. I'm preparing my family. Because when life falls around my ankles all I have is my family and my Heavenly Fathers love and guidance. And I am okay with that. I will be prepared for whatever may come at me, because I am daughter of God and I owe it to Him to show Him how grateful I am for everything He's given me.



It's funny how bright the light is in the dark. And how easy it is to find that light if you just open your eyes.

Something to learn from Mary

I was looking up talks and scriptures recently on Mary (Christ's mother). I found it so fascinating. I've always been interested in Mary for a couple of reasons. One- she's the ultimate mother. She'd have to be to be the Savior's mother. Two- she demonstrated incredible faith. And Three- the trials that she went through in her life are so astounding. To bring a child into the world as a virgin, then to raise that child knowing how special He is, and last.....to watch that Son be tormented, cursed, and ultimately sacrificed for all of mankind. Could you picture having to watch one of your children drag a cross down the street on their back and then be hung on it for 3 excruciating days. I think Mary must have died with Him. But then the WONDROUS things she had in her life as well. To be chosen to be the mother of our Savior, to witness and teach the Savior as a child, to know who He was and how much He meant to the entire world. The pride Mary must have had would be incredible too I think. The thing, I find most interesting about Mary is this........she was around 15-16 years old! The fact that Mary, who was not much older than a child herself, was chosen to be the mother of the Lord. I feel so incompetent compared to her, and yet I am almost twice her age that she was when she had the Savior. One thing that gives me joy though is this.......Christ loved His mother. Christ loved everyone, but Mary was His mother, and He had a special place for her in His heart, because she was His mother. So the saying that, "nobody loves you like your mother." The opposite is duly true. "No one loves their mothers like their children." This is not always true in this world, but I think in most cases, it's true. We could learn so much from Mary and Christ's relationship. Joseph included. He was an incredible father to the Lord. He'd have had to be, to be able to accept what was happening to Mary. I hope that we all remember Christ especially during this time of year. I hope you all feel His love this Christmas. Much love.........

Little Drummer Boy

Not only is this one of my favorite Christmas songs of all times, it also means something personally to me. I often find myself struggling with questions like, "what do I have to offer the world? What good am I doing here?" etc. The Little Drummer Boy is one of those classic stories about humility. I am surrounded by talented people. I have a very talented family and talented friends, but it's always hard to see the talent in yourself. When I think about what I have to offer my Heavenly Father, it's hard to think of anything worthy of giving. So like the little drummer boy, I am trying to find what the Lord has given me and use it to give something back. I have no gifts to bring, and especially at this time of year and season, it seems doubly important to give something back to our Lord who sacrificed so much for us. So here is what I've decided to give. I've decided that I am going to give my heart to Him this Christmas season. I am going to share my heart and love to other people in His name. I am going to visit the elderly, go visiting teaching, but mostly just CARE! How often I find that there is so little caring in the world. Everyone just does their thing and they don't take a good look around at what they could be offering the world or someone in need. So I am writing this down as my Christmas mission this year. I will serve and love with all my ability and hopefully make Him proud of me. I wish everyone a very Merry Christmas, filled with the love pure love of Christ. Give your most precious gift back to the Lord. Give your whole heart and soul. Love His children.

Christmas Letter 2010

Top 10 Reasons Why Christmas will be Different for the Thompson Family this Year.

1. Bridger may have a new Christmas hairdo this year, if he keeps chewing on the lights on the Christmas tree.

2. Jolie may be spending Christmas this year with Santa. She’s come to me with great thought and determination on this matter. She’s explained to me that she would like to spend this Christmas with Santa on his sleigh, feeding Rudolph peanuts. I’m not sure why peanuts, but she’s convinced he likes them. She’s already discussed this with Santa at the Church Christmas Party. So as far as I know, she may be spending the holidays at the North Pole this year. I hope she has fun! I will miss her.

3. Allee may wake up Christmas morning, with her stocking plum full of reindeer poop this year. I told her that for every time she sasses or talks back, there will be a reindeer dropping in her stocking in place of candy. Not sure how I’m going to pull that off, but I’m determined. *giggle*

4. I got to go to the Forgotten Carols show this year. It was a perfect way to get a good grasp of Christmas Spirit. I’m enjoying this season much more thanks to that. I truly feel His love this Christmas season. I am also determined to make the holiday spirit stretch as far as I can take it into the New Year.

5. Quinn may be spending Christmas in a padded room this year. Due to hyperinflation this year, he’s decided that he may need to rent a room after balancing the checkbook. We will have to bring Christmas to him this year I suppose. No sharp objects for him this Christmas. *giggle*

6. Bridger got his two front teeth just in time for Christmas this year. . . . . . . Bridger, please stop chewing on the lights.

7. Jolie might be sporting diapers this year, if we can’t get her to stop peeing her pants. So might Mommy for that matter, if she can’t control herself when she laughs. *giggle* Oops!

8. Allee might also be sporting a new do this Christmas season. I’ve threatened to shave her head if she doesn’t quit sucking on her hair. The time is near. Good thing she’s got a cute face, for not everyone can pull off being bald. Except of course, you honey! *giggle* Ahhhhhh! Quinn put down those buzzers! I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry! Your not going bald, I take it back!

9. I will be the one that will be playing Santa this year. I have decided that I’m the better choice, since it won’t take as much stuffing for me to fit in the suit. I’m working on my ho ho ho’s and trying desperately to grow a full beard. But I’ve got the tummy that jiggles like a bowl full of jelly down to an art! Yes! Wish I could make those pounds “dash away, dash away, dash away all.” But I am now in tune with my inner Santa and figure that can wait until next year. *giggle*

10. And last but not least. . . . . . . . .Bridger! Dang it! Quit chewing on those dang lights! Don’t you smile at me! No, no, you put down that glass ball right now. I mean it son, if you don’t stop. . . . . . . .*buzzzzzz* Ah man! Well Merry Christmas all! I gotta go flip a breaker! Ooof! Dang it Allee, I thought I told you to move your shoes! *giggle* Shut up Quinn.

Hoping you are having a very Merry Christmas and wonderful New Year!
Love,
The Thompson Circus

Night on the town!

Well, I am now going to go see the Forgotten Carols tonight. I am pretty excited. It should be really good. Nothing to get you into the Christmas spirit like that. My amazing husband, mom and sister have taken over babysitting duty so that I may go with my friend Andrea. So let the fun begin. =)